Everything
was done and Pam was enjoying the room we were in so I took off walking to get
some much needed time with Spirit. As I have always said, if I don’t hear from
You and get filled with experience with the Spirit I am like the very worst
person You can imagine as the law that is my heart is “experience with YOU/my
life”. It was Monday night in Reno and we had just gotten back from dinner at Casale's Halfway
Club and enjoyed Spagetti and Meatballs and a glass of wine and got to meet with Grandma
and take pictures even behind the bar with her.
But as I began to walk the energy of late with
the pain of “nowhere to put the passion” and the rejection and misunderstanding
of the world and how it was obvious that no one would be reached by words so I
had seen that indeed the world was going to end as we know it soon as
everything is in place and those believing they are following God in our
society were spreading their interpretation across the world and the sign of
that interpretation born of the Christian Religion was democracy. The
seemingly best interpretation not given by God of all the others indeed. But no
matter how good it seems compared to all the others it is leading to a great
FAILURE because of the smallest of points overlooked. I began walking and saw
the resignation of my own heart to the passionless life that I was living. I
had left the life alone to live in the world as Americans do and I really was
much more happy alone as I dreamed passionately then and had such wonderful
experience but I wanted to share that experience and when I did I ended up in
relationship and all had seen what I had shared but those I shared with had so
soon forgotten the power and passion of what that means and I was alone with
these same all around me.
And
when I am working and doing the same chores and with little experience each day
with the Spirit I become like the worst of them, and the passion that works so
well with those around me is diminished like Samson pushing around a mill stone
my heart aches.
Anyway
I was in the midst of the feelings I had and I that indeed I wanted the world
of humans to end as all were distressed and though they have everything stolen
from nature without the Spirit giving it as before nothing is fulfilling for
them as the original intent within the heart is much closer to the edge of
living and miracles of having in the moment what is needed from the Spirit.
As
I walked I lamented and cried out ot the Spirit that I wanted to LIVE. In that
very moment of saying the word live I looked out from my agony inside and saw
the sign “LIVING STONES”.
Immediately I felt what the Spirit meant and looked for a place to
write what it was that I was feeling. These huge stones were just across the
street and were like tables upon which I could write.
Then as
I walked and saw how all the stones were placed to make the walkways I
remembered this.
Jesus said to them,
"Have you never read in the Scriptures: "'The stone the builders
rejected has become the capstone; the Lord has done this, and it is marvelous
in our eyes'?
And that it was also written
Therefore thus says the
Lord God, Behold, I am laying in Zion for a foundation a Stone, a tested Stone,
a precious Cornerstone of sure foundation; he who believes (trusts in, relies
on, and adheres to that Stone) will not be ashamed or give way or hasten away
[in sudden panic].
Now
this hasten away in sudden panic was most important to the night as soon
I was to see.
And you are living
stones that God is building into his spiritual temple. What's more, you are his
holy priests. Through the mediation of Jesus Christ, you offer spiritual
sacrifices that please God.
The words as used by
religion are not what I hear in these words but rather what the Spirit says to
me. As I walked I came upon a nice casino to sit alone and write more I was
feeling. I had begin to have synchs with banks or the Cornerstone of modern
society. And so I wrote this also in my notebook. I wrote how I was thinking of “who we are, even after death” And
how the image that we were being built up as living stones and that the Spirit
not interpretation was what was meant by the person Jesus as the Cornerstone as
the Spirit spoke through him. My anger and impatience with others was reflected
in the song that played in that Casino. “Give me Your heart, make it real or
else forget about it”.
End Storm being the
synch with relation to “Or else forget about it”.
As I entered into the place to sit and
write two pretty girls came out the door and one I felt the Spirit through as
she said “I love your scarf” to me on the way out.
Later I was to run into her again in a very
unusual way. So after writing my notes I began to walk again down Virginia St.
and noticed the banks one after another and thought about the cornerstone of
modern society. I then noticed those girls again and felt I would run into them
yet again. I walked quite a ways down the street before turning around and began
to walk back. I had this feeling to walk into this casino but I did not want to
bet but the music spoke “Don't be so quick to walk away
Dance with me,” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FraI5i9cTYk So I
moved around inside the casino I was impatient compared to the years alone and
needed to relax and be with the Spirit. All of a sudden I noticed the girl that
had spoke earlier was having trouble with a machine and was saying that what
was happening to her was a sign. I walked up to her and said to her that I was
having a synch with her and she KNEW right away what I meant. I gave her my
card and we talked for a moment. I could have stayed and partied but I needed
the Spirit not company.
The music saying don’t walk away was about me
and Spirit not about partying here. This was verified by what happened after I
left the casino for on this big sign across the street was the words Spaghetti and Meatballs which was the Joy with the Spirit and Pam
that night and the music playing was “It’s the end of the world as we know it
and I feel fine”
I tried to do a
video of this picture and the music at the moment but it did not turn out but I
do have an audio recording I will post.